Talore’s Blog

I have been betrayed.
My story got buried alive.
I suffered suffocation and I lost my mind.
For a time.
I was once left for dead by a man in whose presence I learned to feel dread.
I saw a man’s shadow hang,
and the next day the mourning
doves sang.
There have been knives embedded in my spine.
My heart has beaten so fast
that I’ve seen time move slow when everything around me was
happening too fast.
I believed the biggest lies and
faced guns pointed between both my eyes.
Perhaps I’ve only died about five times,
in which case I could be convinced that my soul is truly divine.

I was once surrounded on all sides by vipers.
Death’s known my name since before I was in diapers.
My mother once made me a flowery crown.
My lover, my friend would never want to see me frown.
Family and smiling faces can really bring their own people down.
I once saw a man’s soul leave his body while he lay dying on the ground.
I heard a coffin rattle in its grave and believed I was the only one who could hear the sound that it made.

I have been betrayed
I have been buried alive.
I’ve approached the void.
I’ve seen beyond the veil,
but most of all I’m sick of dreaming of him
and his posse from hell.

Once I was told I was meek by a man who
was my boss. I rejected him for licking up my neck to my cheek so now I dream I’ll inherit the earth. He pays the cost.

I crawled my way from the mud at the price of some blood.

I have been betrayed.
The skeletons in my closet have not been well behaved.
But here I am….
Emancipated, but internally
I’ve become more complicated.
As eternal is a hummingbird transporting each grain of sand from the shore and as sweet as a breeze
running between the fingers
of your hand.
I felt obliged to open that door.
So, I think if I can only be soft in spite of the anger and pain
and be blessed to sit outside to enjoy soft cool drops of early summer rain then
perhaps I can still find reasons to give love when
it is much easier to hurt with hate.
It’s taken this long for me to see but heaven’s gate was worth the entire wait.